Today is the first day in about 2 months that I've finally felt on top of things. I've got space to breathe. My house is clean(er), I feel like I'm connecting with friends & family again, I'm getting to grips with this new site, I'm enjoying blogging.
The decision to move to this new-look website was not taken lightly. When I spoke to the internet experts, I was told about how wonderful it would be to use, how it was the logical next step for my blog.
The truth is, it's been nothing short of nightmarish and I'll be honest and say that I'm sorry I did it. I miss my old site - the simplicity of writing a blog post, the ease of uploading photos, no worries about disk space or photo sizes...Google's Blogger App did it for me and I could focus on shopping and writing.
But with this move to Wordpress (where I self-host my site) has resulted in hours and hours and hours of extra work for me behind the scenes, fixing links, finding errors, running out of disk space, crashing, coping with shop issues and throughout, I've had criticism from online forums - some quite personal and upsetting. Suck it up is my motto...but there's only so much you can suck up in the space of 8 weeks of late nights I've found.
I've hardly seen my kids or husband, barely cleaned my house and not exercised in this time. Perhaps more telling, I've hardly shopped either...which is unheard of for me! I've cried, I've worried and I've felt like closing up the blog completely.
BUT - something happened over the past week and I suddenly realised I'm out the other side. I'm thinking of new posts, I'm spending time with the family, I found the bottom of the ironing basket (and put it all away!).
The purpose of this post? Well, mainly to thank the people who helped me during this busy time. My husband, my fellow bloggers who've put up with my woes on our online forum and in real life. But most importantly, you - the readers of this blog who've been commenting, emailing and buying from the shop throughout - putting up with issues and mistakes in some cases.
I also just *needed* to write this down - to process it all. Like most women, I tend to breeze along with the 'everything's fine' face on and people think I'm coping really well. But I really wasn't and I needed the support more than I ever let on to my friends and family. I now have the headspace to realise it wasn't a big deal really in the overall scheme of things...nobody died...it's just a blog and I'm out the other side but I'm left reflecting on another life lesson learned.
Here's to having space to breathe again..and loving this blog once more.